Just took my Senior Portraits yesterday, it was kinda nerve wracking yet very interestingly fun at the same time.
I even talked the photographer into letting me take nerd driven shots with my plushies (YUNA!!!), some manga and comic books and my PS2 and XBOX controlers. I can not wait to see how they come out!

That aside though, Im pretty nostalgic atm. In a few weeks the person Im closest to is leaving again, off to a place I cant be for at least another year and a half. Its annoying to be so close and dependant on them when they're hundreds of miles away for a large part of the year, but I would never stop being that way with them really. I couldnt. They know me far too well.
Im going to miss them more than I can describe but Im not going to dwell on it. Im going to grow up more this year and amaze them come my graduation day. I owe them that and I know I deserve it So it wont be good bye when I see them, just "see you later". Heh, who knows? I may even see them earlier if Im desperate enough for a Senior Ball date XDDD;;


Ive also been thinking about the people of my past, the ones who I left because they're just not who they were supposed to grow into. The ones who warped into something....else, to put it nicely. Theres really not too much frustration there for them anymore, just annoyance and relief that Im no longer tied to them presently; though I know I'll never get rid of them when it comes to my past and anyone who remembers it. But Im putting the past behind me and running towards my future now. If people dwell or whatever, thats on them, Ive taken flight from that.
Maybe Im talked about, maybe Im not. I dont care either way. My loner tendency is back as is the knowledge of who are really in my inner circle.
Come what may Im gonna keep moving. Even if I dont care about them and want them to f**k off a lot of the time, I hope they can too.